A line from a song hit me while I was pondering judgement. Spare me your judgements and spare me your dreams
‘Cause recently mine have been tearing my seams
I sit alone in this winter clarity which clouds my mind’. (Thistles & Weeds, by Mumford & Sons)
To be at the point of clarity and release, we must first go through the metaphorical tower moment then Death. From this death comes grief, confusion, sadness, anger and finally acceptance. These are normal emotions that accompany the aftermath of a major ending. I believe we do have the choice in how we handle sadness and disappointment in order to reach clarity and release. We are able to assess and learn.
The catch is being aware of that “ego voice”. The part of us that wants the control, the fairy tale, the idealistic yet unrealistic reality. The part of us that sabotages our happiness and causes much havoc if we allow it. When we look at the imagery depicted in many pieces of art on Judgement it has a very spiritual connotation to it. The figures appear to be experiencing a resurrection in order to be assessed on their heart and actions. This idea is huge. There is often forgiveness with the moments after Judgement. With forgiveness comes healing and the ability to change and discard and start life anew. Metaphorically this is something we should, if we are on a path of light-leaning growth, experience many times in our lives.
If we choose to really really reflect and be as impartial as is possible for us to do, then we can stand in our own truth more accurately.
It’s easy to get caught up in how something should have been. This is a trap because it paralyses our growth and ability to step into a beautiful life again by keeping us at the graveside of what has passed.
To hear and face the call to awakening or starting over are two very different things.
We can hear easily- listening and acting is the hard part.
Starting over with new skills,understanding and knowledge doesn’t mean the circle of endings will never come round again. Life is one big cycle of revolutions. What judgement or being woken does is let us keep what is useful from our experiences and throw away what is useless baggage.
I love the term rising from the ashes.. it is so dramatic yet perfect for regeneration. It is up to us to do what we choose with what we have. The imagery and symbolism on many paintings and art of the Judgement card show that it is possible for anyone to experience this consciousness, rebirth or resurrection.
It is liberating to come to a point of accepting our own roles fully, and not blaming the other or the situation or event. Do we have to be grateful for heartache and loss? I don’t think so. But what i do think we must be grateful for is how it brings us closer to living in our truth and wisdom. The purpose of life IS to be happy. We will not find that in others. Or things .We find that in our depths. We find that in our own.ability for contentment as a human. To be given the chance to rise and follow our authentic road – that is a gift for sure.
The song finishes with the phrase “plant your hopes in good deeds, don’t smother your soul in thistle and weeds..”
Very apt for growth and release.